A search for myth...?

...And the first was a formless void. And Amun raised himself from the waters. By his will he raised him. And he raised himself in his hand. And to his fist made bright passion. Raising fire within himself, from himself and to himself. And Amun took his emanation and consumed it. And became father to himself. And he spat forth his fiery Semen, and it scattered the heavens, and from it the Gods where born, the Children of Amun-Ra...
(Egyptian creation myth)

...That which was before the Gods were...Before Diana split into herself and her brother, Lucifer, the Light....

...and the two embraced and were One...
(Wiccan Second legend of the Goddess)

I am both and neither. Masculine and Feminine. I am one - yet more than these separates. I am Male and Female. Anima and Animus. I have sex and Gender - my body is male...yet science tells me that we are all conceived female. My genes are a unique conjoining of my mothers and fathers. X and Y. We all are.

But science now suggests I may be even more unique than that. My body may exhibit a blurring of the genders: biological structures that are different in men and women, in gay people may exhibit a middle...we may exhibit cross gender variations: structures in my brain may be more similar to those of a woman than of a man. Their work suggests my body may exhibit what my spirit has always known - I am Male, but also more: I can also be Female...

I am Gay. There may even be a Gay Gene. My physical may be a fusion - a manifestation of a 3rd gender...

I know I am different. I am more than an effeminate man. But I am not a Woman in a Mans body. Nor am I just a Man. I feel Me!
I understand Women - I love men!...but I also feel like a man.
But I feel uniquely Me - and unlike them - Straight men and straight women.

At first I wondered if it was uniquely me. Or a social/cultural thing.
I feel men can meet their Anima and reconcile their feminine. Jung was right. Likewise women can manifest their Animus, and gain strength and Self from it.
But they are still Straight. They still relate externally. The Shadowy Self is still projected out to be understood. Sex for them is a meeting of opposites.

I relate to Women and Men - but neither: Sex is not with either straight gender, but with my own.
I understand Women and Men - but neither: their concerns are not mine - or only similar...but different...

I watch the turn of the Solar year through the Sabbats, the turning Wheel, the pulse of life. I feel myself in the changes. I am transformed also. I watch the story unfold - the meeting of God and Goddess - their spiral dance of love and life and death...But I am in all the players...and none.

Wicca uses the Yesodic triangle - Malkuth, Hod, Netzach, and Yesod at the Centre. Do I express before this Triad, to Tipareth and beyond..? I can be Hods Hermaphrodite. Yesod's Feminine is within - my Anima bleeds, menstruates. Wicca happens out there. The God and Goddess are invoked and meet in bodies.
For me it happens in here...

The myths give us ideals, their stories tell us of the Self and the Souls journey...Father, lover, son...but can I embrace more than these separates?...